Saturday, January 20, 2007
This entry is specially for my beloved grandfather who left us a week ago... My grandfather in his 80 was called upon to be in God's arm on 13 January 2007, 2050 hour. He is a nice grandfather always dote on us alot but we never realise that despite how often my mum remind us till he left us. I wish I could have done more and do it better when he was still around. I have never held his hands, talk to him much, visit him.. not to mention telling him I love him. The first time I touches his hand was the day when I saw him lying there no longer can hear nor feel me... his hands felt so cold.. I know he is gone.. I know nothing I do can better salvage what I haven done... I regret not making effort to see him when he was hospitalised... I took it for granted that he's gonna be fine... I wasnt very close to him thou.. still he is my grandfather... Still someone that is close to me... I hope my grandfather can forgive me for being such a unfillal grand-children.. Like what my mum said, I am the only one that he didnt see before his last breathe... I felt so miserable.. I blame myself for not doing enuff... This has taught me a lesson to treasure and love the ppl around me more cos we never know when they gonna leave us... We see many emails on how ppl regretted not treasuring their love ones we thought we know and we understand but that's not the truth.. We tend to tell ourselves that we must learn from those but we always fail.. WHY? Cos we were never in their shoe we never know how tormenting it could be.. I know he will never get to see this blog.. But I still wanna shout out to my beloved grandfather that I love you and I wanna thank you for giving my family a chance to acknowledge you and the rest of the family members as well as all the things that you have given and done for us. I am sorry for being so unfillal... If given a chance I would have ensure that I put in 100%... Gong Gong, I know that you are in good hands of God and he will lead and guide you to his everlasting paradise he promised. You have taught me how to love and treasure ppl around me more... This is a lesson learnt at your expense.. I will remember it for the rest of my life and practice what I was taught. Although you aint with us anymore, I believe you will watch over everyone and bless us! Dear Gong Gong, you will be dearly missed by all of us!
Lastly, we all loves you deep down just that we never had the courage to say!
***Dearest fren: Never be afraid to tell someone how much you love them***
***When they are gone its just too late! They can never hear you & they will never know! ***
Labels: In Living memories of my beloved grandfather
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