Saturday, March 31, 2007
23rd March 07
Meet up with Sulin last fri @ suntec as there is a fair at Suntec for frangrances... kaoz I was carrying such a heavy lappie from office to suntec then we walk around.. The fair is not very crowded thou but all the ppl there like veri KS like that.. All bags have to be put into a plastic bag and seal up.. I was thinking only my handbag la.. The lappie should be fine.. Then when i was telling the person this laptop bag dont need right? The auntie replied "cannot la.. this is also bag" Kaoz.. Scare ppl still the thing meh... Really cannot take it.. Then we went in and there isnt much variety thou... So walk around and see.. Smell lots of frangrance and coffee too.. haha... In the end I bought the 2 frangrance below... Went dinner at Suntec KFC and head home...
Total damage for the day was about $130...
24th March 07
Haven been trimming my eyebrow for the longest time.. Went Vivo City to look for the makeup artist who did all the trimming for me all these while... I think from now on I will at least have to go Vivo once every 1.5 mth le.. Cos she will be permanently station there.. After the eyebrow trimming we went there to walk walk abit since travel so far there le.. Went into a shop call don know what island de la... Then saw a nice top but know what? THE TOP COST $89!!! WoW sO eeeeXXXxxx hOrz.. But its very nice.. Cant bear to buy it cos the top is not something that I will always wear and its very different from all the top I have.. Scare later I buy le wear one time ppl say not nice then I will throw at hOme.. Money hard to earn lorz... After shopping we went to Sin Ming Rd to buy the chocolate cheese cake that is advertise on teebee... Wow went there spend about 20+++... The cheese cake is really not bad leh... Nice.. Yummi... Didnt buy alot cos scare not that fantastic.. So only give Rong 6 pieces.. As I wanna let CH and PR to try de who knows on Sunday when they go 3rd Uncle hse, they all finish eating le..
CH/PR: NVM K? Next time i will buy a whole piece for the family...
Sunday as usual laze at home and also finish up some work that i bring home to do on Fri..
30th March 07
Finally got the time to do manicure le.. And this time i did a french mani..Why so happy about it? cos everytime before I go do manicure my nails will chip and ended up I haven been doing french for like a year... =)
2:06 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
I lost someone that's very very dear to me on 12.03.07 @ 4.35pm... My beloved granny, one that I loved with all of my heart. One whom I grown up with under her care... Life is so vulnerable... I just visit her on Sunday cos mummy called and tell me that she haven been eating for almost a week so ask me to buy Glucose for her.. Text Rong and ask her if she wanna go along.. She readily agree too.. When we reached we saw granny so weak... The way she is breathing is like using all the energy she has.. Pain me to see her like that.. Don't wanna drink don't wanna eat then where to get the energy.. Usually when she see a bunch of us there she'll chat and talk to us but Sunday it was so different.. She just lying down on the sofa and sleep.. Mummy, 5th Auntie and me went off at 8+ when granny is fast asleep... That very night I told QF that granny look very sick and ask her to visit her soon.. Just as she planned to go aft she knock off on Monday granny just couldn't wait and we lost her at 4+... The GP came and pronounced granny dead... I just cannot accept it... After a while, they moved granny to the room and cover her with blanket.. Mummy tell us to talk good things to her.. cos she will be able to listen to us and once the coffin is sealed we wont be able to see her again...
Next morning, reach uncle place at 9+ am cos the coffin need to be seal before 12.. I sat next to granny, taking a last close look at her and touching her.. It is such a heart ache.. All I could do was cry cry and cry.. Uncle tell me to say nice thing to granny but I cant say a thing cos it is just too painful... We went down to the void deck to receive the coffin and do some prayers then went up to the house to do another round of prayers and they start to change my granny clothes.... after which, we walked down the stairs together with my uncles, aunties and cousins .We took a last look at granny before the coffin is sealed up.... That's the last time I see her..
Can i not accept the fact that she's gone? I love her so much to let her go.. I cannot bear to see her leave us... My wish was for her to live till a ripe age of 100... I don't want.. I don't want... Give me back my granny.. There are still so much we wanna say to her so much we wanna do for her.. No one witness her death except Mummy, 3rd Uncle and AhNa... When most of us reaches there she is already lying down on the sofa no longer with any heartbeat.. My tears roll down when I see her lying there.. When we were still kids I rem we always like to touch and play with her hair then she will scold and beat our hands.. Granny spend alot of time on her hair every morning when she wake up... She will hang a mirror on the window then start to comb and tidy up her hair then wake my sis and me up when she stay at my house...
The funeral lasted for a week.. No time and mood to update my blog as the few cousins stayed there late every night and on some days we stayed till morning then go home... It is tiring but it is worth it.. When she is still around she dote on us so much and now that she is gone that is the only thing we can do for her... Siting down beside the coffin and burning the joss paper is something so saddening.. Luckily there is always 2 person burning together.. If not i think i would cry like don know what le..
Sunday was the day of the funeral.. It is time to send granny off... Just before we left to go to the cemetery there was a ritual and a small performance for my granny.. That was one of her favourite when she's around.. After which we follow the priest to walk around her coffin.. While walking some of us cried.. I don't know why until that day I still cant accept that she's gone.. I cried.. Very badly.. Walk from my uncle house till the street after sun plaza and took the bus to the cemetery and its time to bury her coffin... All was done and we took the bus back.. 1 week just past like that.. She is old already... She lived for 94 years and have a 5 generation family.. Alot of them says she is very xin fu le.. Although my granny is gone but she'll be kept close in my heart.
Wherever she is now I know she will be well taken care of...
God pls bless her & take good care of her...
Lastly, Mah.. I love you and you'll live in my heart forever and ever...
1:53 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Haiz.. Believe it or not, I am so busy in the office that I have to bring my handover list home to do lorz!!! Time flies.. Next wed is my last day at Citibank le.. Veri fast horz.. Talk talk only.. Just like as if I tender yesterday nia... Dont know why I dont really feel excited about the new job... Hai... I am a freak lorz.. What is holding me back? Who can tell me? Today, Hazel (Director) was talking to me and asking me when was my last day.. I try to brush off the topic by telling her I am busy and she say she will talk to me again.. DAmn! I am dead this time..
Ok enuff say, I wanna go watch teebee le... Hey today i got another bouquet of flower from XXX... So nice lor compare to the flower he buy 2 weeks ago...
Was busy with the handover list lorz... Pls see below for the list.. ahhaa
Handover List
Daily Submissions & Duties
· CBAW Roadshow Submissions
· Micro-Branch Submissions
· Telesales Submissions
· AO team reject applns/ follow-up for MA checkers
· Credit Card Submissions
· ECCMS
· Leads Routing & updating of spreadsheet (CPO, Ethnic Segment, Kana, Citigold, DII)
· Issue pending files & collecting ready to submit pending
· Updating MIS for daily collected appln & submission figures for XXX & YYY
Weekly Duties
· Extracting of acct nos. for all accts that are open by AO team
· Compiling acct nos. on Wed for RMs to check before submission to HR (Details of which company acct no to pull can be found in G-drive under Admin folder)
· Sending acct nos. & filling in change of bank details form/ photocopying authorization form to/for company HR on every Friday
Monthly Duties
· Training of new hires on applications & admin process
· Extracting of accts nos. for all appln submitted for the month
· Compile all accts opened in the previous month & email to DMG. File should include all acct nos. & company name.
(Send acct nos. to DMG by end of 2nd week of the month latest)
· Tabulating and Checking of SIPs for AEs & RMs
· Compiling of timesheets for Direct Sales & Telesales folks for XXX to sign & maintain/file timesheets
· Maintaining budget spreadsheet & submitting invoice to VPU (Include filing and sending Fincon a set of PDF files)
· Prepare monthly accruals report to Fincon
· P2P requisition – Ordering of Business card, Laptops, ATM
– Ink cartridge, Stationary, Letterheads
– Raising of PO for payments to Vendors
– Creating vendors in P2P^
^ (Applicable only when vendor is not in p2p)
9:56 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Suddenly just missed Chun so much.. Was having dinner with Mummy and she was telling me that when she was chatting with my uncle on Sunday his eye was filled with tear the moment he mention about my cousin.. Mummy was telling me that my uncle did not have dinner that night and couldn't sleep too.. Mummy said no matter how strong a man is there is still a soft side and as for my uncle his soft spot was the family... He is a man who loves the family loads.. He is a very caring and nice father..I envy my cousin having such a great father.. No doubt he doted on sis and me loads too. That's why our family are so close.. It just pains me to know that my uncle is so sad.. I wanna call him to talk to him but at the same time i am scare that if i call him i will further damage the situation he is in now!
Pr called Qf just not and was chatting with her and half way thru their conversation I took over the phone. She was telling me that she called CH this morning and was chatting with her.. She is doing fine there. Pr was telling me that she intend to visit her in June... But I also heard from LR that CH say she will be busy in June so I was thinking ask them to go next year.. But Rong, PR and CH fren are so sweet.. They do not want CH to spend her birthday there alone so they decided to go there to celebrate for her.. Haiz.. I would love to go too.. But I'm going to change a job soon and will not be able to visit her this year.. Will go Aussie to see her next year instead. Meanwhile i need to save money for the trip cos i am going to pay for 2 headcount...
Gonna text her in the next few days.. She must be busy settling down and getting ready for her stuff.. plus she must be overwhelm by all the calls and msges from her frenz.. I will give her sometime to breathe first.. I believe she must be missing all her relatives and fren here too.. Wondering will she be crying when she sees all the msg and calls...
Chun, how are you there? Is everything fine? Are you sleeping well? Eating well? Adapting to the environment there?
I'm missing you! Can you hear me???? ('-')
9:32 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
===3rd March 07===
Went to Yishun to meet him for lunch before meething SL to buy CH's farewell pressie.. But that stupid SL keep rushing me to meet her cos she cannot go back late.. I also cannot go back late cos i got a dinner lor...Koaz.. Then make me so pek chek that i decided to go buy the pressie myself. On my way I saw LR... Haha.. ask her go where then she say going to Auntie shop.. So i walk with her to auntie shop then she says she going to bugis with CH & PR. I also wanna tag along lor.. she refused and tell me that CH is at UOB bank so i go find her there. My colour pencil so nice lorz.. ask me go where and i say no where then she ask me wanna go bugis with them a not of cos i readily agreed... We went to guan yin miao and then went for a snack before heading home to get ready for the dinner.. Know that there will not be much time to talk to her as we got a CNY dinner to attend after that she need to go home to do some last min packing and some of her frenz will be staying over at her place too.. Mummy, QF and Miko went back at about 1+ and I stayed over hoping to spent more time talking to her.. who knows the useless me fell asleep at 2+ and when i woke up its already 6AM!!!! PHew! Lucky I was with them in the afternoon at least some quality time was spent together...
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===4th March 07===
Woke up at 5.50am this morning... All of us were busy getting ready to prepare to go airport.. We reach airport at 7+ had BK for breakfast aft which time flies its time CH broard the plane.. while on the way walking to the departure hall my mummy, CH's mum, LR and some of CH frenz started to have tearly eye... Told them not to stand near me if not i will tear too... when it was time for her to board she bid us goodbye.. All of us each gave her a hug and ask her to take care... that scene was so saddening lorz.. my tears start to roll... Aft that we headed home.. on my way i texted her to ask her to take care and wish her all the best.. She replied me to ask me to take care of myself and mummy too.. All of a sudden i feel like crying again... Reached home le.. bath and try to sleep but just couldnt.. I miss her so much lor.. I know its gonna be harder for LR and PR... not to mention MY uncle and auntie for we have never left our parents before.. Its gonna be so hard broken for them...
*** Let's back track abit to the times where we were young...
We are so close since young.. Used to stay over my cousin place over the weekends and every sunday my uncle will bring us out for breakfast if not somewhere nice to play... Thats how the 5 of us got so bond to one another... CH is the eldest among us.. Rem when i was in primary school she used to fetch me to and fro for my tuition class, bring us out to eat and play and buy us alot of stuff etc... She dote on us alot too.. Whenever my family got prob she is also there to help... So many ppl out there envy this bond... No matter where u are and what u do nothing can break this bond up... Its a bond that is build up thru all thick & thin!
*LR/PR don be too sad k? Lets face it that she is leaving for the better and she will be back de! The 2 of you muz not be so sad and take good care of your papa and mama... They already very heart broken le. If u all still so sad it will just add on to their pain. K? YOu'll always have my shoulder to cry on...
Bestest cOusins always!
Went to Yishun to meet him for lunch before meething SL to buy CH's farewell pressie.. But that stupid SL keep rushing me to meet her cos she cannot go back late.. I also cannot go back late cos i got a dinner lor...Koaz.. Then make me so pek chek that i decided to go buy the pressie myself. On my way I saw LR... Haha.. ask her go where then she say going to Auntie shop.. So i walk with her to auntie shop then she says she going to bugis with CH & PR. I also wanna tag along lor.. she refused and tell me that CH is at UOB bank so i go find her there. My colour pencil so nice lorz.. ask me go where and i say no where then she ask me wanna go bugis with them a not of cos i readily agreed... We went to guan yin miao and then went for a snack before heading home to get ready for the dinner.. Know that there will not be much time to talk to her as we got a CNY dinner to attend after that she need to go home to do some last min packing and some of her frenz will be staying over at her place too.. Mummy, QF and Miko went back at about 1+ and I stayed over hoping to spent more time talking to her.. who knows the useless me fell asleep at 2+ and when i woke up its already 6AM!!!! PHew! Lucky I was with them in the afternoon at least some quality time was spent together...
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===4th March 07===
Woke up at 5.50am this morning... All of us were busy getting ready to prepare to go airport.. We reach airport at 7+ had BK for breakfast aft which time flies its time CH broard the plane.. while on the way walking to the departure hall my mummy, CH's mum, LR and some of CH frenz started to have tearly eye... Told them not to stand near me if not i will tear too... when it was time for her to board she bid us goodbye.. All of us each gave her a hug and ask her to take care... that scene was so saddening lorz.. my tears start to roll... Aft that we headed home.. on my way i texted her to ask her to take care and wish her all the best.. She replied me to ask me to take care of myself and mummy too.. All of a sudden i feel like crying again... Reached home le.. bath and try to sleep but just couldnt.. I miss her so much lor.. I know its gonna be harder for LR and PR... not to mention MY uncle and auntie for we have never left our parents before.. Its gonna be so hard broken for them...
*** Let's back track abit to the times where we were young...
We are so close since young.. Used to stay over my cousin place over the weekends and every sunday my uncle will bring us out for breakfast if not somewhere nice to play... Thats how the 5 of us got so bond to one another... CH is the eldest among us.. Rem when i was in primary school she used to fetch me to and fro for my tuition class, bring us out to eat and play and buy us alot of stuff etc... She dote on us alot too.. Whenever my family got prob she is also there to help... So many ppl out there envy this bond... No matter where u are and what u do nothing can break this bond up... Its a bond that is build up thru all thick & thin!
*LR/PR don be too sad k? Lets face it that she is leaving for the better and she will be back de! The 2 of you muz not be so sad and take good care of your papa and mama... They already very heart broken le. If u all still so sad it will just add on to their pain. K? YOu'll always have my shoulder to cry on...
Bestest cOusins always!
I lOve yOu peeps tO e MAX!
Chun, I'm missing you loads!!!
Chun, I'm missing you loads!!!
ONE big family
The lovely unbeatable bestest 5! Rox!!
10:07 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Very fast horz! CNY over le.. As usual CNY go to the same relative hse see the same face.. So nothing special just that i treasure the CNY more this year cos Color pencil (CH) is leaving to Aussie le... Next year CNY will not have her around... So sad! But i am going to save more money so that next year my sis and I can bring Mummy & Daddy to Aussie to celebrate CNY there... They are keep saying LR and I sure cry tomolo when we go airport to see her off de.. Koaz who knows later the 2 of them also cry lor.... Tonight the 2 familes are having dinner together this is the last dinner we are having together before she flies off. When are we going to have the next dinner together again? haiz.. Must take more pics tonight.. Going to shop around to buy her something. Wanted to get her a winter wear but sad to know that i do not have bonus this year so dont have money to buy for her.. but she wont blame me de la.. at least i have been trying to find something for her. Since young she has been very nice to my sis and I... Haha.. I was telling Rong that she dont have to be sad cos i can be her substitute sis when ch is not in Singapore since we look so alike.. =) The five of us are so close lorz... Now that one is leaving us to Aussie left with the 4 of us... so ke lian.. But its good that she go explore now since she still young.. I wish her all the best.. We will visit her sOOn... Tonight dont know going to stay over her place or not cos i am not feeling well.. Was sick since Tue... Damn!
Other updates...
CNY was busy so didnt have the time to update.. plus work was busy too by the time i am back at home all i want to do is have dinner, rest and watch teebee... Lots of things happen during this CNY... I have finally decided to take up the offer from HVB and went down to sign the documents on Monday. Text my bosses they were shock to know that my decission was that. I know that they are sincere about asking me to stay but i think the enviroment there is killing me.. I tot i need a change.. Its not about the package alone but also the job scope and career prospect.. 14th March will mark my last day with Citi and I shall move on from there. Time flies.. I joined Citi in 13th Nov 03.. I learnt alot there and get to know many ppl there too.. Cant bear to leave the place just like that.. I felt that i could have done more... Why is it that the offer they give me is so good and yet i reject? i think i really cannot take the enviroment there lah... Ok la.. i am getting more and more confusing le.. I got some pix that are due very long.. but still i wanna put it up...
Other updates...
CNY was busy so didnt have the time to update.. plus work was busy too by the time i am back at home all i want to do is have dinner, rest and watch teebee... Lots of things happen during this CNY... I have finally decided to take up the offer from HVB and went down to sign the documents on Monday. Text my bosses they were shock to know that my decission was that. I know that they are sincere about asking me to stay but i think the enviroment there is killing me.. I tot i need a change.. Its not about the package alone but also the job scope and career prospect.. 14th March will mark my last day with Citi and I shall move on from there. Time flies.. I joined Citi in 13th Nov 03.. I learnt alot there and get to know many ppl there too.. Cant bear to leave the place just like that.. I felt that i could have done more... Why is it that the offer they give me is so good and yet i reject? i think i really cannot take the enviroment there lah... Ok la.. i am getting more and more confusing le.. I got some pix that are due very long.. but still i wanna put it up...
Days passes just like that.. Last night marks the 49th day of my beloved grandpa death... Last night about 9+ I reach home and saw a small moth in my room... Then i was telling my sis that our ah gong is back to see us she scold me siao.. then i tell mum that there is a small moth in my room is that ah gong she say yes.... then she ask me to use 2 20cent coin kneel down and ask but i don dare or i should say i rather believe that that was his "hua shen" to come back and see us. Of cos my LKK dad choose not to believe lor... Is is a myth? Haiz who cares..
11:57 AM